Resilience Shawna Fortin

By the time I was 19, there were three things I loathed more than anything; me, myself and I. I couldn't trust myself. I didn't love myself. Worst of all, I couldn't get away from myself. I consumed anything to flee from my feelings. Drugs, alcohol. Cigarettes. I hated myself for being so weak. For being powerless. I wanted to stop but couldn't. Sobriety meant reality and that meant facing myself. That felt too vulgar. Too annihilating. Too utterly shameful. And then, my world collapsed. I understood at some core level that I had to change or slowly die. I decided to try to learn how to love myself. I chose to learn responsibility. I chose to create my life rather than letting life happen to me. I literally had to relearn how to live. The relearning was grueling. There were days when I felt like I wanted to cut myself out of my skin, the inner turmoil was so agonising and pervasive. But I hung on with sheer determination and ultimately the desire to live. I found faith in both... Это и многое другое вы найдете в книге Resilience (Shawna Fortin)